26 Weeks Ultrasound!

Our baby girl's precious face! Here is her leg all stretched out!

And a GIANT boat foot! Just like mom's!

Thankfully, she is still a girl too!

Not exactly certain what this it...

Look! She has hair already! I need to start making some hairbows!

Her sweet little face!

And, her tiny hearbeat!

25 Weeks

Nothing much new to update on this week. I am going tomorrow for an ultrasound at a local ultrasound college- I'm pretty excited to see our baby girl again! I really wish I could afford a 4d ultrasound so we could see her precious face, but she'll be here soon enough, I just have to be patient!

We did get our crib delivered this week and painted our baby girl's bedroom, so now it's all pinked up- what a drastic change from the spider man blue it was a week ago! I can't decide if I want to do pink, white, and black stripes around the bottom of the room. I found a black whimsical tree wall decal on eBay that I like but know it would be too much going on with stripes also. I was also able to find a curtain that had a similar damask print I was looking for, so I plan to make her bedding, yes, out of a curtain! My sister thinks I'm weird but I have high hopes that it will turn out nice. Now, I just need to save up money for the rest of the fabric so I can get started!

I'll update tomorrow with ultrasound photos of our baby girl!

How Much Can One Person Take?

I've decided I may be near my breaking point. I should check myself into an insane asylum. That is where I belong at this point in my life. I feel like the world is crumbling in on top of me. The weight of these financial, emotional, and physical burdens is about to crush me.

I sit at home every day, avoiding the bill collectors phone calls. The phone rings, for a second, I think to myself...someone thought enough about me to pick up the phone and dial my number today. Then, I realize it is an 800 number, collections agent, local hospital, all attempting to squeeze blood out of a turnip as they say. Last week, the cable company came out twice (apparently to make a repair), but we intermittently checked the cable and telephone to see if they had disconnected it yet. Now, we're left with nothing to buy groceries with for a week and a half. My kids are so bored at home, they beg for a happy meal...sorry baby, mommy can't afford a happy meal today. They beg to buy a toy from the dollar tree... sorry baby, mommy can't afford any toys today. I'm on my last shot (which are over $1000 monthly, but thankfully only a $40 deductible for me!), there's only $10 in the bank for another week...what do I do? I either risk a miscarriage with our precious daughter or find some way to milk the turnip.

I feel so alone. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to when I wake up each morning. Of course, I have my precious children, but I have nothing to give them. No fun life, no trips to chuck e cheese, or the jumpy place, or lunch at McDonald's. No drive to the park because we have no gas and mommy is too big and fat and lazy to keep up with you. I sit here alone, no friends, no family, no nothing but me and my kids (who often tell me they want a new mommy).

So, here's to me and my pitty party today! Maybe I'll get over it soon, or find a real hole big enough to crawl in!

24 Weeks

Well, since Jeremy never gets to feel our baby girl moving, I don't think he believes that she actually moves and I feel it. So, sitting here earlier, I caught her in action on video!

So now I have proof that she is real and she does move!

God has been so good to us this week! We have not had enough money to buy a crib and I found one online for $100, but we haven't had an extra $100 to spare to buy it yet. I had 4 sales (http://www.bubblesandbutterfly.com/) this week (and hopefully a few more will pour in) and now I have enough to buy it! I also found a changing table on craigslist for $25. I didn't need or want one, but it sort of matches the crib I found and for $25, if nothing else, we can store some things on the shelves. At least it would give me a place to put those cute damask baskets I bought a few weeks ago! I just have to make it to the lady's house to buy it!

She also still doesn't have a name. I just can't decide! I am leaning more towards Annabelle, but Nathan still insists that her name has to be Elizabeth. My aunt asked me today what the meaning of the names were. Elizabeth was "God's promise," and Annabelle was "Grace" or "favored Grace." Her middle name will most likely be Grace too. I don't think the meanings helped me in making a decision! My mom's middle name was Elizabeth and my grandmother's name was Grace. I have no significance for the name Annabelle other than that is what I wanted to name Nathan if he had been a girl. I just don't know how to decide!

On another note, my sister had her big ultrasound this morning. She already has 1 boy and she really wanted a girl. She called to tell me she is having another boy. She seems really disappointed. I'll give her today to let out the disappointment, but come tomorrow, she better get over it and be thankful her little angel is in there still and alive! I know she will love him!

Check Out My Interior Designing Skills

I just can't decide what to do to our baby girl's room. Right now it is a dark blue canvas of spiderman. It needs a 360 degree girly makeover! Somebody help me decide!!!

Here are some ideas I had, and just disregard the name on these...It is not certain that her name will be Annabelle, I just had to put some name there to represent the walls letters I will make for her!

This one is the bedding that I liked from Target, but it looks nothing like the stock photo that they show on their site. The color is a hot pink rather than the soft pink it shows on the stock image. I just think the bright pink and green would be better for a big girl room, not a baby room, though I do love it.

23 Weeks

I began to think yesterday that my stomach exploded out of nowhere! I seem to be much bigger all of a sudden! I can also feel our baby girl move so well now, I am reminded by the frequent kicks in my butt during the day! Jeremy and Nathan were finally able to see and feel her move on Christmas Eve, they were both pretty fascinated.

I have been trying to decide on things for her room so we can get started painting over the dark blue walls, but I just can't decide. The set I liked from Target continually changes status, from in stock to "order now for delivery within 2-4 weeks," but reviews that people have left state they have been waiting for months. I found a custom made set on eBay that I really like but of course can't afford the more than $300 price! I was hoping to be able to make it myself, or find someone who could, but I can't seem to figure out how to operate a sewing machine!

Here is the project I quickly threw together last night after I figured out how to thread the stupid needle! I think it is somewhat cute, despite my ugly, uneven seams (and please, never look at the inside of the dress!) Now all it needs it a monogram on the front...too bad she doesn't have a name!

Nathan is going for his sleep study tonight which means I'll be here alone which makes me uneasy being at home alone at night...not looking forward to that and I just want to be there to protect my little man! Maybe he'll decide he wants me to go with him at the last minute!